Saturday, May 10, 2008

Mother's Day

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and for the first time on this holiday, I've taken the opportunity to really think about its meaning and just what it means to me. There are so many places I could go with this but I'll try to keep it simple. First, the true meaning. To show love and appreciation for my mother. She is without a doubt, the most influential person in my life. To say that she has made many sacrifices for me or loves me is such an understatement. Now that I'm older and a mother myself, I can reflect on all the things that seemed so small when I was growing up but now have such a significance in my memory. I can now realize and appreciate the many things that she's done for me when I never even thanked her. It would be impossible for me to show her how much I appreciate her today as not just a mother, but one of my best friends as well. I can talk to her about anything and go to her with any problem (just because I could doesn't mean I take everything to her and I'm sure she appreciates that!). My mother is also the most dependable and loyal person I know. She has always been there for me when I needed her and always will. I love her and I'm thankful to God for giving me such a wonderful Christian mother. Happy Mother's Day, Mom!
For the second half, I've reflected on what this day means to me as a mother. I guess I've never really contemplated this before. I just knew that I expected the kids and my husband to present me with a card; possibly a gift and that would be the extent of it. But this year, I'd like to take this day to be thankful that I have been given the opportunity to be a mother to 3 of the most wonderful children in the world. I am thankful for their personalities, their uniqueness, their health and most of all their forgiving and unconditional love for me. I'd also like to recommit myself to be the best mom I can be to them and be a positive role model in their lives just as my mom was to me.
Happy Mother's Day to all of you!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Debbie Downer


For those who read this on a regular basis, let me apologize for the lapse in posts. For those who know me well, you know its because of our lack of internet for the last week and a half. And for those that know me even better, I had to go outside to be able to get online! Anyway, I have had lots of thoughts over the past several days so I've been anxious to get back to writing. I sometimes wonder if other people "think" as much as I do. I don't mean that in a negative way if that's how you might take it. I mean that I put so much thought into everything I do daily, even the simple things that I'm sure many would think is silly. I know Curtis does because he lets me know often either by poking fun or just giving me "that look" when I enlighten him on what's going on in my head. He has no idea just how often I keep those thoughts to myself. If he knew, I'm sure he'd consider getting me professional help. I tend to explore the consequences of every action so much that it sucks the fun out of everything. Most of what we do that's fun or exciting is done without regard to possible consequences. That's part of what makes it fun! But not me. I have to be the reasonable and responsible one that's the party pooper. And don't worry, if you are doing something that could have a negative outcome, I'll be sure and let you know. This is definitely something I need to work on. It can be such a downer sometimes. I remind myself of Debbie Downer - see the video. Now I'm rambling- see what I mean about the thinking? And that was just a small window into my head. Let me get back to the original thought. This is what I was talking about. I think about things so in depth that I can start thinking about something so simple and end up in deep thought about something that doesn't even exist. I know that I'm not alone in this behavior (thank you Steph) but I do feel sure that I may be a minority in this. What does the average person think about when there are moments of calm or quiet throughout the day? And how would we know they are the average? I'm sure one day there will be a way to answer some of these questions since technology continues to advance in leaps and bounds. I'm curious but I may not want to know other peoples thoughts. Perhaps God intended to keep those private and that's why our thougths are silent to the human ear. For now, I'm glad God doesn't judge me on my rambling mind!