Thursday, July 9, 2009

Thirty-one

Thirty-one. What does that number mean to you? Is it how many days you have until vacation? Or maybe its the number of anniversaries you've had. Perhaps its only meaning is that seven months see that many days. To me, its even less. Thirty-one is just another number at this point in my life. I guess I should also mention that its my age! Last year, as I approached and passed the dreaded mark of turning thirty, I cringed. The thought of being that age was depressing to me. I should be more clear so that I don't offend anyone. Thirty itself wasn't what bothered me. What bothered me was that I had not marked off most of my "to do before I turn 30" list! That list included the things it should have like finish college, get married, see the world, buy a house, etc. For anyone that knows me well, you know that only one of those items were accomplished and I did that one twice which wasn't on my list. The point is, life just hasn't turned out to be anything I've expected so far. It would be dishonest to say that I'm completely happy with it all anyway but I can accept it for what it is now and move towards the future that I want. A few credit hours are still needed for me to complete my degree but fortunately, there's no age limit to school. Although the house is not in the near future, its still there and still attainable. Thankfully, I don't need that to be happy either. I have gotten married and had three beautiful children, which I tell myself is the reason for having done things a little "backwards". Looking for the positive aspect, I will still be young when my children leave the nest so that I can enjoy the retirement from that job I have on my next list. So, what have I learned from all this? I've learned that being thirty-one this year really means nothing. It was just another day in my life. It didn't change what I've done, what I'm going to do and most importantly, who I am. I'll continue to make my lists and strive to mark each item off because goals are needed. However, I'll try to stress less if I reach another milestone without marking them all off because after all, this life is simply a speed bump in the eternity that we will one day enjoy!